It’s been a long time, way too long. I would like to blame the events of last fall on my long absence, but I can’t, in all honesty, do that. Maybe it had something to do with it, something about a tragedy makes a person think and evaluate, for better or worse. Mostly though felt like I had nothing to say anymore, one can only talk about gardening and chickens and canning so much before things get boring and monotonous. Besides there are a thousand blogs out there on the same subject with better writers and photographers. I guess you could say my self confidence took a major nose dive! On top of that this year has been the most frustrating gardening year of my entire life. I had so many plans and dreams, and they all pretty much feel flat on their faces, a combination of poor soil, cool temps and a sick me made for a bad season and, I’m anticipating, a disappointing harvest, which means if I want to can much this year I’m buying produce, which defeats the whole “self sufficient” idea.
Yeah, I’m feeling pretty down about my efforts this year.
On a happier note, notice how I mention being sick, well that is because I’m expecting again. Due the first of January, and this has been a wonderfully horrible pregnancy. Wonderful because the sickness means my hormones are working as usual, horrible because I have been sick and spending a good part of my day laying down, and that is hard on everybody. We did find out two weeks ago that we are having a bouncing baby boy, and so far he looks healthy. With our little angel we had a healthy ultrasound at sixteen weeks too, but something happened between 16 and 20 weeks when we lost him. To say the last few weeks have been a tad anxious would be an understatment. I’m fortunate though, to be under the care of a compassionate midwife who graciously lent me the use of her dopplar and every night before bed I find my baby boy’s heart beat and my mothers heart rests a little easier.
❤️
So excited for you 🙂
How exciting! I’m so happy for you. Sometimes I think stepping back is a good thing even when we feel it’s not.
Erika
We should get back into writing letters again I miss our conversations
You are amazing and should be proud of your efforts! I’m so happy and excited for you!
Yay!
There are lots of other farm and garden blogs out there, it’s true, butI like yours because I know you and I like to see how things are going, both good and bad. I would much rather read your blog than some stranger’s with perfect photographs. So keep blogging! When you can, of course. 🙂 So excited for your baby.
I think it is sooo sweet that you are able to listen to your boy’s heartbeat every night. I can’t think of a better way to end your day!
Yay that you are writing again! I have one teeny little heirloom growing on 16 plants. I am rather sad about it. Oh and your sweet babe, this is such loveliness. Happy your care giver had a Doppler you could use for the next couple weeks.
That is wonderful news, Amiee. So happy for you. I’m with the other girls, please keep blogging! You’re an inspiration. PS – up your salt intake and it should help the sickness. 🙂
Oh Aimee, I’m so glad to see your posts! So many of us love to hear about your homestead life. Farming is tough – some years are good, some not so good, despite the best of efforts. I so admire your talent and hard work. I pray that the Lord will especially bless you throughout your pregnancy.
It’s GREAT to see you blogging again Aimee! IMHO you always have something worthwhile to say! Very excited for you and your family on your new little son and his upcoming birth in January. What a wonderful way to begin a new year:)
Blessings,
Aimee