What kind of Woman

What kind of woman do I want to be? I do a lot of blog surfing. I read a lot of Conservative Christian blogs, and these women fascinate me. Some are a lot like me, pretty typical mommy type, some home school, some wear skirts, some grow their hair, some wear skirts to their ankles and long sleeves, some wear the whole dress thing and cover their heads to pray, and some wear the head coverings all the time. There is one blog written by a lady who is trying to live completely off the land, she makes her own butter, cheese and yogurt all from the cow she milks twice day, she even makes her own lard. They all have big families and view their husbands as the head of the house. Reading these have made me think a lot about what kind of woman I am, and what I want to be. A lot about their life style sounds wonderfully right. I love how dedicated they are to their homes, children and husbands. They are homemakers and they revel in their homemaking. I am deeply impressed that they are willing to push aside the fashions of today, the pretty clothes and jewelry, to wear dowdy skirts, grow their hair long and wear scarves or prayer caps all day. I admire their dedication to their beliefs. I wonder if I am that dedicated. Now, I am not going to be dressing in skirts, growing out my hair and wearing head coverings, my religion doesn’t dictate that, but what am I willing to do? Maybe I shouldn’t be so worried about my looks, my clothes, my hair and make-up, my jewelry. I could be more dedicated to my kids. I could make my home more inviting. I could be more submissive to my husband, wait a little long for him to lead, instead of charging head long as the leader. I could make our home more inviting for him, a place of refuge, and teach my daughters to do the same. I am 30 years old, the mother of 5, married for 10 years, and I am wondering what I am and wondering about what I have been doing the past 10 years. I am wondering what kind of woman I am going to be for the next 10 years.

6 thoughts on “What kind of Woman

  1. I think you’re doing just fine! I had a really good friend tell me once that you “can’t judge your insides to anyone else’s outsides, because you’ll always come up short.” You don’t know what all those other women aren’t telling you. Just decide what you and the Lord want you to be and leave everybody else out of the it.

  2. I am not comparing or judging myself, I think I am doing just fine too. However there is always room for improvement and I can always work towards bettering myself. I like to look at other people and see what they are doing and what is working for them. If it is something that feels right and good, I want to try to be like that. Can I be a better wife? Of course! Can I be a better mother? Yes! Can I be a more religious woman? Sure! If I don’t change anything am I doing am I still a good person, mother, wife…yes…but I am not growing or improving.

    I really like the idea of being domestic, I like the idea of being a little more old-fashioned in my approach to homemaking and life in general. There are not a whole lot of resoarces (oh wow, bad spelling!) out there for a woman who “just” wants to be a homemaker and mommy. It is nice to read about other woman who feel a little bit like I do about life and family and home.

  3. I think you are doing great! Lets look back over the last few months. You have started cooking our own bread, making yogurt, you made cream cheese last night, you bought a clothes line to dry your clothes (to save energy). You are now growing sprouts, which makes me like to eat salad. And you lost more weight than I did.

    You can also make punk #1 listen to you and you are raising the kids to be good mothers/wifes/companions.

    From where I sit, you are doing a GREAT Job.

    And please, don’t be any more submissive to me. I enjoy it when you help push and pull the family along. It gives me the ability to focus on the things that I am suppose to be doing. Supporting the family, and being a Dad.

    In sort, you are doing great. And who else would know better than your “Partner in Crime”?

  4. ok wait, I didn’t want this post to turn into a “tell Aimee she is a good person” thing.

    I was writing down my thoughts.